was , am , will .

Assalamualaikum ..

I haven't update my blog for quite a long time , i believe . I am just feeling lazy for it , and still am actually . Not knowing what i have to tell you about , bla bla bla .

Ok , i want to let my cat out of the bag . Hushh hush everybody . emm . I .. I am .. I am not ready yet .. to further my study . I still want to live my life to the fullest , in a good way of course . * oh really ? HAHA so funny that i forgot to laugh . it's impossible , dear me . get it ? - YEAHH , I GOT IT , FINE -

and , no matter what , i still have to settle down everything . my BIMB account , medical check up , registration fees ( NOT " please insert your parking ticket , the fee is one ringgit , please enter your J card to discount " ) , and my clothes , stationeries , bla bla bla ba baa black sheep .

Damn it , I'm losing my another two bestfriends . Marina is going to Cyberjaya today , and Paie will go to Malacca tomorrow :( they'll start fighting for their future before I am . Whereas my dearest nazihah and some others have started their journey . And here in JB , i am all alone -__-

All the best , MY FRIENDS . I am here in JB , going nowhere , hoping that you'll never forget me , our memories , sweetest and bitterest . I was loving you yesterday , I am loving you today , I will love you tomorrow , and am loving you forever . No matter what , I want us to be one like how we are today , for ever . Take a very good care of yourselves ey , and take a very good care of your faith too . See you again soon in heaven . May God bless .

Taa ..

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Half Of Me

Since long ago
I feel the feeling I'm feeling
I've tried my best to be the best for you
But not yet you realize

I hurt so much , baby
But it's fine
I love the path I chose

I just want you to be
half of me
I hope you to be
half of me
But will you
be the half of me ?

No , darling
I don't want you
But I need you
To be here with me
All the time

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a visit

semalam aku pegy visit tempat kerja aku dulu . hehe: D actually bkn lahh visit sgt , lebih pd menyinggah je . ade hal kat sana . alang-alang dah sampai sane , aku jenguk lahh kawan-kawan kerja aku . glad to know that they are in a pink of health. tapi takde masa lahh nak jumpa kak angah && kak fiza , sbb dorg kat taska :( kak ida alhamdulillah sihat , kak yati dh ade lesen kereta , kak Tipah makin comel pula aku rase :P , kak umi dah nakk benti keje dah , nak g further study . kak mid mcm biase, tp skg kena cleaning sorang2. aha. kak Huda dah semakin berisi skg sbb mmg dye berisi dah punn :P and thank God dye nmpak sihat je , kak liza pulak busy buat preparation wedding dye . God , i miss them a lot !

the kids .. hmm :(( how i love them sooooo muchhhh . nak tau takk, dorang excited bile dorang nmpak aku . dorg terjerit-jerit bile nmpk aku , mcm happy sgt je . seeeshhh, I'm so touched. mase tuu , aku rase mcm "Ya Allah! , ramainye org yg sayang aku . " lebih2 lagi bile Awish cakap " teacher dayah , kite rindu teacher dayah . "Oh My God ! -__- they still remember me! Now i know the satisfaction of being a teacher. Being loved, remembered .. Ayish .. the one yg kakak-kakak tu ckp my son , looked so happy once he saw me . dah lama aku tak tgk senyuman dye mcm tu . kak Tipah ckp , dye still mcm dulu , taknak bercakap dgn org punn . dye senyum nmpak gigi dgn teacher dayah je , dye naughty dgn teacher dayah je . or I'd better say dye menjadi diri dye yg sebenar .. i really miss him, i miss his friends, i miss his teachers, i miss being a teacher.

Unfortunately , i was running out of time . tak dapat singgah lama-lama kat sana , kiss dorg sume :( God willing , nanti ade masa aku g sane lagi . Teacher dayah loves youu , babies .

May God bless ~ Amiin .

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you and you

em . assalamualaikum :)

yes , it's about you . ehem . just a simple note for you . please don't make me like this . it's torturing me and i can't bear it . not anymore . i think i have been through it enough . but i know i'm so strong that i can't stop lying myself . stupid eyy ? But it's okay , my pleasure . And it's not bothering you eyy , so don't bother me .

but now , i've made up my mind . no more , no more , no more . one thing for you to know , i'm not a doll nor a robot , i'm just a girl . i don't know why i had to have this stupid feeling toward u . but it's over . thank you .

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April 08 , 2010

hai kawan-kawan . hari ini hari sabtu . hari ini saya dan rakan-rakan ingin makan-makan bersama puan fauziah untuk meraikan ke'blah'an afiq hagemaru yang ingin berangkat ke matrikulasi . namun begitu , puan fauziah tidak dapat bermakan bersama kami kerana beliau mempunyai hal . tidak mengapa , kami faham , guru .

haha . putus fius ey . em .. harini plan sume lari marathon , aku tak sempat nak kejar . huhu . sampai jusco ade la dlm pukul 1.00 ptg kot . lepas tu amey cakap cikgu tkdapat join kite sume g celeb afiq . huhuh . jumpe cikgu pun kjap je , bebual sikit lpas tu cikgu kena mengundurkan diri ( jgn salah faham , cikgu bukan berjalan ke belakang ye ) .

and then kitorg pun decide pegy skudai parade jehh , g bowling . ade tiga kereta eyy . yg aku tau aku naik dengan kereta hijau cantik amey bersama marina , arep , dan redha . total up kepala kitorg sume , ade 14 kot kalo tak silap . err . penuh la awak-awak . takpe , kite tempah je dulu eyy . dan kitorg beredar ke surau , memuhasabah diri . pukul 2 lebih kot baru start game .

ehe . aku satu group dgn rezal , arep dan kacak . cehh konon-konon mase first game , main mcm galak lahh en kitorg sume nih . mase first game , group aku kott yg menang sbb arep punye skor paling tinggi . kan kan kann ? ;) aku pulak ade satu je spare . kacak ade jugak eyy strike mase nih , tak ingat lahh . hee . second game sume mcm ape je , down hbs . masing-masing dah taktahan lapar kott . yg kat SP tuu pulak , kedai makan dye mmg banyak enn . huhh -___- anyway , nak bagitau sikit nihh . mase 2nd game , aku ade lahh sekali strike . hehehe :D bukan nak bangga , tapi puas hati lahh . hee :D

dah hbs main ape sume , kitorg nak balik . nak makan jauh sikit , tapi masa tak mengizinkan . afiq , lain kali eyy kite g makan kat dataran merdeka tuu . aku punn teringin gak nak g sane , gaya kaw cakap tuu mcm best sgt je tempat tuu ( biase la afiq , sape taktau gaya dye cakap ? aha ) . last-last balik jusco smula , makan kat pizza hut je lahh bro . anyway , nasib baik bisnes aku tak rosak gara-gara afiq ngan amey yg dajal tuu . hoho . bye-bye-bye-bye sume orang . then amey tlg hantar aku balik uma . thanks bro ;)

hadoi . sampai uma je terus solat maghrib . lepas tu syida tanye , nak g angsana tak ? err ? nak nak nak nakk ! haha . penat doee , bukan calang-calang penat nihh aku rase . dan keluar lagi -_- April 09 mother's day aite ? and my dad's birthday too . huhu . kitorg adik-beradik serta mama berpakat membelikan ayah sehelai kemeja batik . cari kat butik danial haikal collections , dan akhirnya berjumpa sehelai kemeja batik berwarna hijau dan kami pun mengangkutnya pulang . harap ayah suka dan sesuai saiznya .

lepas tuu kaksar ngan syida g makan kat bawah . aku tak makan sbb ' no-heavy-meals-after-nine' . lagi-lagi lepas kawan aku ckp aku gemuk . ada ke ? -___- lepas tu terdengar nabil cakap lepas ni azzam idola kecil perform . disebabkan adikku mundzir nak tengok azzam , maka aku pun membawanya bersama basyir g tgk azzam . pengacara dye nabil ngan aliff satar . hadoii . bule tegang pipi aku sbb asyik gelak je . hee . tgk azzam perform , sheila perform , jayjay perform , nubhan perform . tapi tak sempat tgk akim, dayana IK ngan adibah noor perform . bule tahan lahh , best jugaa . thumb up for the concert .

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