All the memories are to be kept , not to be deleted

"Life is full of lots of ups and downs ."

Yeah , that's true . Nothing goes right when everything seems so wrong . The mood . The feeling . The environment . Everything . Every single thing in life . Albeit the so-happy-looking appears physically , but no one knows the condition of the little heart . No one . But Allah .

"There's nothing more painful than to let your feelings take you down ."

Hmm . I'm feeling a lil' bit tired of talking about the same thing nowadays . But I have to , for 'that thing' is like a devil that keeps haunting me , non-stop . URGH . I tried my very best not to keep thinking about it , and I almost succeed . I'm not going to let my feeling (that bad feeling) take me down . No , I am not !

But , he ruined it . A friend of mine . He did . Hey , don't talk to me about that matter lah ! We are matured enough to think . And we don't need you to remind us . Thanks , but no thanks . We are not blind yet ! Hmm yeah , I admit that I am touched . I remembered everything , vividly , clearly . Thanks for your PURE INTENTION , but it even becomes worse . So just let it be . Don't try to be so caring towards us (much more to busy-body I guess) . We do appreciate it , but we are leaving everything to fate right now .

"Sometimes I found myself sitting back and reminiscing ."

All about us . I forget nothing . But the feeling is now differ from before , like there's something very big is separating us . Like I don't know you anymore . Like , uhhhh forget it . As I told you'all , QUE SERA SERA . WHATEVER WILL BE , WILL BE . The future's not ours to see . Que Sera Sera .

Believe me , I'll never forget it . But the feeling , it's now different . And there's nothing I can do to fix it . Just leave it to fate , to Allah's qada' and qadar . I believe HE knows the best . Told you few times already and now I'm bored :/

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I am not , so you , please don't

Assalamualaikum :D

Phew~~! Hihi . Am relieved . Sangat-sangat . Tadi dah lepas exam hafazan dan bacaan al-Quran . Hopefully , InsyaAllah this one akan sedekah banyak markah untuk carry mark . InsyaAllah :) Rasanya aku dah buat yang terbaik , dan nampaknya MACAM ustazah puas hati .

By the way , ustazah akan mengakhiri zaman bujangnya kurang daripada seminggu nie . Hehe . Semoga perkahwinan ustazah dirahmati Allah dan semoga dipermudahkan segala urusanmu . Amiiin :')

(cerita pasal kahwin , aku pula terasa mcm nak kahwin . HAHA lambat lagi okay , dayah ? :P)

My life ? Ahaa . Macam tue la juga . Top news , aku dah malas nak fikir apa-apa . Que sera sera . As my friend said , biarlah , mungkin setiap apa yang berlaku ada hikmahnya . Oh sebenarnya bukan mungkin , tapi MEMANG ada hikmah pun . Cuma , belum nampak je lagi apa hikmahnya . Suatu hari nanti kot . Wallahualam .

Biar la apa orang nak kata pun kan ? Kita hidup bukan untuk diorang , tapi untuk kita sendiri . Setiap apa yang kita buat , bukan diorang yang tanggung pun , tapi kita sendiri . Biarlah orang nampak kita nie jahat ke , kejam ke , what so ever , yang penting kita kenal diri kita sendiri . Diorang bukannya hidup dengan kita since kita kecil pun . Kalau aku kebulur , bukannya diorang pun yang tolong bagi makan . Kalau aku susah hati , bukannya diorang pun yang tolong aku . Kasi menyemak lagi tue mungkin ade la kot . Pfft ! Get off lah loser . Dan , asalkan kita tak ganggu life orang lain , cukup berbaloi-baloi la tue . Ye dakkk ?

Kalau nak fikir apa yg org cakap , memang masalah kita takkan selesai . Kan ? :D

So , WHATEVERRRR LOSERRRR ~~! WHAT-A-BER!

Oh hey ! Awak nie H.A , saya still tunggu awak okay . Fullstop . :) Semoga awak cepat sembuh ♥

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Hoping the beginning to an end

Assalamualaikum guys ,

"Hope for the best."

This morning , something sad happened . A friend of mine looked gloomy . We asked her why , yet she didn't tell us . Once we finished our class , we wanted to go to the library to print out past semesters' quest papers for the final exam .

She still looked sad . I asked her why , again , but instead she said "sshhh!" , signalling "u better shut up or i'll kill u." . And I , "oh alright , I'm sorry." Then , we walked down the stairs quietly , as I wanted to give space for her to calm herself down .

While we quietly walked , I at the front , she called me and started to shed a tear . And I began feeling sad , too . She told me she can't stand 'it' anymore . She had had enough (me too actually). And I brought her to 'wakaf' and sat down there , giving her (and myself) time to spill everything out , let all the tears dropped and some time to think .

But still , we can't find way to settle 'this matter' . To frankly speak , it's pathetic to see four of us become three . Where everybody noticed . Everybody wondered . Some asked . Some talked at the back of us . I know . And we denied . Denied the vivid fact .

It hurts me . So much . And she too , I know . Deeply hurt . But I'm uncertain about another two :/ Please buddies , reset ur mind . I know u can , but u do not want to . Because of ur mindset . Umph .

In the evening , we participated in an explorace for the English Day , the four of us . I was worried about how we're going to cooperate in the game . But Alhamdulillah , All praises be to Allah , everything went well . All of us can cooperate very well . And we were the 2nd winner :D

And we won this

View from the back

Front view

:)

Actually , we were supposed to be the champion . But instead , we're not . Wonder why . But it's okay , what is more meaningful to me is 'us' .

It's hard to tell you through words . Let me feel it , just me .

I love you . I love you . And I love you . I love US . Let me re-tell you , I LOVE US .

Let time explains . Hopefully something better is waiting for all of us , insyaAllah .

awak tolong LIKE ya ? :)

Life seems so hard .

The worst is ,

I feel tired of it .

Damn tired .

:'(

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When you come to a roadblock , take a detour

"All my life I've been good but now , Oh I'm thinking WHAT THE HELL ."

People won't miss from having problems in life . One problem at a time may be simple , as we don't have to cause the head to turn 360 degrees just to find the solutions .

But , that one sounds weird . As it's like impossible . Is there anyone here in this BIG world that has only ONE problem in your life at a time ? If yes , let me know . I'd be interested to see you . Yes , YOU with a problem ONLY .

These are problems ;

Assignments

Environments

Friends

Family

Heart

Mental

Physical

Work

ETC.

And those lead to a BIG STRESS .

"Yeah . My problems seem small to you because you are so darn BIG ."

This happens . When others tell him/her their problems , hoping that he/she will help them AT LEAST lessen their burdens , but instead , he/she takes it easy . And at last , they commit suicide , as no one cares about them , not knowing that The Only One , Our Creator , is always there by their sides .

"Allah will never burden His servants beyond their capabilities."

Allah knows . He knows the best . He knows best what is the best . He has created us , and He has planned our lives , without us knowing it . Allah is The Almighty . Subhanallah . Allahuakbar .

But it's human . It's us , who think life is cruel . This means Allah is cruel ? Astaghfirullah al azim . Naudzubillah .

Actually , I'm here because I need to tell you that my life seems to be worse these days . My heart feels uneasy . Like the peaceful in me seems lost . Am feeling like nothing goes right . Everything is just so wrong .

It's embarrassing to frankly say that I now , start to hate people around me . Not all . Not one . But few . And this actually makes me feel bad . Yes , Allah hates people who hates others . It's a big sin not to greet people for more than three days . I know that . I know it VERY WELL .

But why ? Why is it I'm so stubborn to understand that ? ERGH . It's satan . The devil . Yes YOU devil , PLEASE STAY AWAY FROM ME !

Now I start to hate myself for hating people .

"Oh Allah , please forgive me for hating people , but they are just so annoying . Oh Allah , please purify the heart of mine . I can't bear it anymore"

What comes around , goes around . I am afraid . Yes , afraid .

My eyes welled and the tears start to fall down . I hope the problems of mine will go away , far from me as the tears do . Disappeared . Forever . And ever . But , it's impossible .

Every clouds has a silver lining . I believe . InsyaAllah .

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