cinta dalam hati

mungkin ini memang jalan takdirku
mengagumi tanpa dicintai
tak mengapa bagiku
asal kau pun bahagia
dengan hidupmu , dalam hidupmu

telah lama ku pendam perasaan itu
menunggu hatimu menyambut diriku
tak mengapa bagiku
mencintaimu pun adalah
bahagia hidupku , bahagia hidupku

ku ingin kau tahu
diriku di sini menanti dirimu
meski kutunggu hingga hujung waktuku
dan berharap rasa ini kan abadi untuk selamanya
dan izinkan aku
memeluk dirimu kali ini saja
tuk ucapkan selamat tinggal untuk selamanya
dan biarkan rasa ini bahagia untuk sekejap saja

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-__-

Assalamualaikum ,

Err , okay . It's been a very long time since last time i did it for that reason . And last night it happened again , and this morning too . Now i have to build my strengh again , after so much time i've take for doing so . Arhh , my strengh has come to zero degree . Everything is just too fast , till now i am differ from who i was yesterday . I did the most stupid thing . Yes i did .

Love comes to those who still hope even though they've been dissapointed , to those who still believe even though they've been betrayed , to those who still love even though they've been hurt before .

Serious shit , I don't know why but i know i will wait for you till my last breath , or until I have one concrete reason to leave . Thanks for all the moment we've been through together . I hope I will find someone that makes me forget you .

Tapi aku tetap nak kau jadi kawan aku mcm biasa . Kau cerita masalah kau , aku cerita masalah aku . Kau kutuk aku , aku kutuk kau . Kau cakap aku bongok , aku cakap kau pun bongok . Kau tolong aku , aku tolong kau . Aku care pasal kau , kau buat lantak kat aku . Bole kan ? Aku cuma perlukan sikit masa je untuk failkan kemas-kemas feeling aku . Jangan risau , aku sikit pun tak salahkan kau .

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Thinking Of You

Assalamualaikum ,

What I found today will not be the reason for me to stop thinking of you . I love who you are . I love the way you treat me , the way you mad at me , the way you tease me , the way you laugh at me , the way you talk to me , the way you smile at me , and every single things that you do .

And I myself , love the way I love you . I don't mind being a one-sided lover , I don't mind thinking of you every single moment while I don't even know what you're thinking of , who you're thinking of . You might NEVER think of me , instead . Stupid right ?

Ahh , I just don't know when it will come to the end . The feeling of loneliness , the feeling of loving but not be loved , and all those stupid feelings .

Yours Faithfully ,

ME .

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Headache

Assalamualaikum ..

Huhh , pening mcm nak mati ! Teruk sgt ya kitorg nih ? Kalau mcm ni la flow life kat sini , aku taktahu la bole target dekan ke takk . Hurm .. Benda alah nih betul2 bole effect aku punya study lahh . Kata-kata tuh kann satu doa . Aku takut masin mulut , hancur study .

First time dalam hidup aku kena mcm nihh . Sedih kot , takpayah nak cerita lahh . Serba salah pun ade sbb aku tau itu sume pun salah kitorg jugak . Masing-masing bkn kecil lagi , sume dh besar . Dh bole fikir baik buruk sendiri . Cuma behave mcm kanak-kanak yg tak matang langsung . Ke byk sgt makan vitamin M pun taktau lahh . Arrr , aku tgh cakap depan cermin lahh ni -__-
I know kitorg suka sgt tangguhkan kerja , sbb tu jadi mcm nih . Konon lambat lagi , tup tap bsok dah kena . Nak jwb ape bila dh tak siap tuhh ? Nak kena deduct carried mark ? Padan muka kan ? Sendiri bikin sendiri tanggung lahh .

Tapi aku cuba jadi yg terbaik , untuk diri aku , untuk ayah mama , untuk semua .. Mmg susah nak puaskan hati sume org kan ? Takpun sbb nila setitik rosak susu sebelanga . Benci la aku mcm ni . Habis melayang sume semangat aku nak blaja . Ke aku patut jadikan itu sbgai pembakar semangat ? Buktikan yg aku bole buat ? Kawan-kawan aku bole buat ? Apa korang rasa ?

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ouch

Assalamualaikum kawan-kawan ,

Emm . Skg nih aku busy sangat . Assignments, tests , quizzes . pening kepala tak smpat nak sehat , datang lagi pening baru . So this is student's life ey ? Alright , now i know . Mcm mana ey nak buat ? Seriously i'm afraid that i cannot achieve my target . Nak dekan , nak NC . Mama dengan ayah cakap dorang nak tgk muka aku kat banner muka-muka dean list sem depan . Kalo cmni gaya , mcm mana nak dapat ?

Adoiyai . Rasa mcm banyak sgt je distraction , tapi sebenarnya taktau pun ape . But the point is aku rasa mcm aku ni tersasar je , mcm tersimpang drpd target . Apa kejadah entah la . Aku try buat yg terbaik . Of course la apa yg aku usahakan , itu la yg aku dapat right ?

Okay , now i am thinking backward . Ingat semula target , ingat semula objektif , ingat semula azam-azam masa mula-mula sebelum aku masuk Uni . Yaya can do it right ? right ? You believe in urself right ? Ok now smile , and keep it . Don't think of nonsense things . Focus and focus . Try and try again , and keep trying . Don't give up hope . Don't lack of self confidence . Calm down . Chill . Keep praying . Keep hoping . Keep trying . Keep up good works , goodbye bad works . Behave well , then Allah will bless . Aminn ~

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